Distance: 12.02 miles
Route: Clyde Fant
Time: 2 hrs 14 mins 47 secs
WTF am I thinking?  Last week was 11 miles and I was so irritated by the end of the run that I just wanted to forget that I even ran it.  I don't think I'm necessarily burned out by running, so much as all of the other stuff in my life.  I decided that this week I would let it all go and just focus on freeing my mind and letting it wander. 
It was cold.  Not just cold, but Dear-Sweet-Baby-Jesus-Why-Are-You-Hating-On-Me-Please-Don't-Move-Us-To-A-Snowy-Climate-For-Our-Next-Assignment-Because-I-Will-Surely-Curl-Up-And-DIE kind of cold.  Okay.  Maybe that's just a smidge melodramatic.  But it was cold.  I had to trade in my signature Bubba Gump hat for a beanie.  I started 30 minutes later, to try and let the sun thaw out the day a little.  Didn't really do much of that, but I did have to finally wear sunglasses during a morning run. 
It was a good run.  I'd had a crappy nights' sleep the night before and I had a bad dream wherein I started the marathon and then at mile 2, I took a wrong turn and got lost.  Because I went off-course, I was automatically tagged with a DNF and had to quit.  I woke up and felt like it had actually happened.  When I hit the trail, I kept thinking about the symbolism of that dream and why I had dreamt it.  My previous marathon experience, while I am eternally grateful for it and for my friends that ran it with me, left me a little bruised and scar hard.  I was burned out at the end and almost completely quit.  I didn't want anything more.  Now, 2 years later, I am loving it and loving the challenge.  I'm grateful for the gentle nudge back into it and don't regret it at all.
So back to WTF Am I Thinking??  I drove on base the day before to look at the base trail.  Initially, I was going to run that, so I wouldn't have to double back, but decided against it.  Doubling back seemed a much more pleasant alternative.  Granted, the base trail is quite lovely and is actually a great path (and long too).  I think I have just have a negative association from the previous long runs that I am absolutely loathing the fact that I will be running it again.  Most likely starting up this next weekend.  There is a base running group that is also training for NOLA.  They run on Saturdays and I tend to run on Sundays.  I'm sure that I will join up with them at some point.  I'm not an exciting person...I bore myself.  :)
Jenn came and ran the last 5 miles with me, which I was very grateful for.  I felt good at the end of this run, but I've noticed that I've become a lot more sore after these longer runs.  I need to be more diligent about using my roller and stretching.  I'll pick it up this week and see how much of a difference there is.
So, first official week of NOLA training is in the books.  11 more to go.  I can do this.
You can do it! We are always cheering you on, even if you can't hear it. It will be a journey, but I know that you are strong enough to make it happen.
ReplyDeleteStretch. You can't do that enough. Hopefully I will be able to run with you soon. Someday. Still working out the kinks here.
Remember, running in the snow helps keep your knees numb, so a cold climate could work out nicely. ;)